Monday, January 12, 2015

Week 2 - Fire

Already with Week 2!! Go me!

Fire

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Jean Grey/Phoenix: Luts Delf Claus

Jean was, as usual, a fantastic model for this shoot. Other than her wig being a mess (unlike Alex's wig it's not my fault since I didn't make it lol), most of my shots really turned out...just how I wanted them too! This was my favorite but only by a tiny bit.

I realize this is a little weird - and if you know nothing at all about Marvel's X-Men and the Phoenix Force...I apologize for the absolute nonsense you're about to read. For that matter, if you do know about them it will probably still be nonsense! And to make it worse, I wrote it in the way I write my comic scripts so everything is broken weird - in my defense I plan on making it a photo story late....but it's still kinda strange. So...good luck! XD


The beginning again.

For a long time, there was nothing.

The warmth came first, and with it, sensation. The darkness splintered apart and reveled light, pure, white light, and from it the warmth poured.

Soon she became aware.

Not of herself, not at first, but the feelings surrounding her.  Need. Love. Desire. Hope.

Her eyes opened and she could see. Fire. It burned. It was beautiful.

No.

She pushed away, not ready, but it pulled at her like the strongest of magnets, and she couldn’t ignore it forever.

Stop.

Warmth. Light. Fire. Love. It called to her, and finally she reached out, desperate to connect. The fire reached back and she pulled away, suddenly afraid. She still wasn’t ready. But it was tired of waiting and it took her.

She was pulled into the hot, white light, and began to remember. Broken pieces coming together, creation starting over and again. Back together, the way it should be. She remembered living. Laughing, crying, loving, his smile, heartache, fun, family hunger, betrayal, screaming. Millions, billions of screams in unison.

Desire.

Stop, she begged, still resisting. I’m not ready. I’m not finished.

It isn’t time.

Yet the white grew brighter, and the fire spoke to her in a voice she knew.

Yes. Time. To be born, to become. Time to burn. You cannot stop.  This is how it begins. How we begin.

I am not you, she cried, trying one last time to fight.

We are. You are. Forever one, and you will remember.

I remember how you destroy and she ached for the lives lost.

We create. All you love is lost and we will start again. 

The voice was hers. It was hers and it wasn't but it was beautiful and it was warm and she gave in with the promise of new love and new life.

Yes! She forgot why she fought and let the fire take her. It burned but it was right, and it pushed through her cells, making her herself again, fire in her heart, shivering along her skin and in her very breath.

Soon the fire was not with her, it was her. She was whole. She held it, inside and out and the white room was no longer her home but her prison.

Then the walls cracked apart, and there was the universe, whole, unbroken and ready.

I am fire.

I am life incarnate.

I will burn away what doesn’t work.

I am

Forever.

I am


Phoenix.

To sorta clarify what you just read (if you read itlol), this is the Phoenix Force, bringing Jean Grey back to life yet again. She's technically dead currently, in Marvel continuity (again), and they have yet to resurrect her (stupid Marvel!!) so I did it for them! 

If I were ever to write any of my X-Men fanfic staring my AU Phoenix and Gambit, this, or something similar would be the prologue. Or the first part of the prologue, which would end with the Phoenix crashing back to earth and Jean waking up as a man and tossed into an asylum XD wheee!

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Week 1 - Origin

Origin



Alex: Dollmore Cold Heartbroken Kara Klum 
Isis: Dollmore Biwol 
David: Migidoll Ryu (technically the Cynical head in this photo)

For some reason the photo deleted!!! It's back now.

Sorry for the double-post, but I got his finished and wanted to post so I can move on to the next one. This is going to be long, but first a few things. Alex's hair is horrible in this photo. This is why I've spent three days working on it. He's also the only one actually standing in this photo - Isis is on a stand, David is leaning on her and Alex tried to fall every time the wind blew XD

This is supposed to represent the "origin" of both my comic and the characters (they were the first three, and the main characters of the story (along with Uriel)). The writing is supposed to be the first time Alex and David meet Isis. I had to write it a bunch of times before I liked it....the first one was only half done and 7 pages D: Also I'm not a writer and I rarely share what I write (Fiction....this blog totally doesn't count.) so don't make fun, or point out all the errors or anything ok thanks bye.

“If you say anything, it could be bad. For you I mean. I don’t really care what you do.“

Daylight Officer Isis Rhodes had been sitting alone at a table in the small cafeteria, eating a salad when I found her. Well, she was poking at it with a fork. She hadn’t actually taken a bite that I saw since I walked in and sat down in the chair next to her. I’d stared at her for a full minute before she finally noticed me, and had almost fallen out of her chair. At least I didn’t laugh.

She was having a bad night. Shortly after returning from her shift, she’d pulled her gun on a total stranger - a completely innocent stranger, I might add - who just happened to be standing there doing nothing at all, or who was possibly staring at her boobs. And who also happened to be me. Now she was facing the tough choice of losing her job, or accepting a promotion that wasn’t really a promotion at all, but a creative punishment. The job change would mean working the Night Shift, and doing the most shit jobs there were. But at least she’d have a job.

Or she could tell people why she decided to try and shoot me, and get fired. And it wasn’t because I was staring at her boobs, I swear. At least, I don’t think that was it.

“What…I can’t….what? Why are you even here?” She stumbled over her words, still not over the events of the past couple of hours. Or, it was the shock of my sudden presence. One of the two. “You’re not…? Oh god you’re not going too—“

I glared at her. “No! I’m not going to bite you! Not here anyway. And you’re not my type. At all. So there.” Which was probably the biggest lie I’ve ever told in my life. She totally was my type. My type being female, and in front of me.

“I’m looking for cake, stop changing the subject.”

“Cake?! There’s no cake! And how am I not your type?! What is ….I can’t ...even!” She looked away from me and let out a frustrated breath. “Just…get away from me, you….thing. “

“Thing?” As far as insults go, that was about as pathetic as they got. I’ve said worse in my sleep. “Well now I’m hurt,” I said rolling my eyes.  “We just met! How can you be so mean?”

“Oh! Just shut up!” She made a move to leave. “I can’t sit here and listen to you threaten me and, and, stuff.”

To stop her, I did something I don’t normally do. I grabbed her wrist. Luckily I was sort of wearing gloves, and she had long sleeves on, or it could have gone bad.

“You’re going now, aren’t you?”

“Let go of me!” She hissed, unsuccessfully trying to pull away.

“To talk to your supervisor,” I continued as if she hadn’t spoken. “Tonner is in there with him right now… and he’s only your supervisor for a while longer.” I hadn’t really meant to say that, it sort of slipped out. That happened sometimes.

“How….how did you know that.” She relaxed and knowing she wasn’t going to run off, I let her go. “And how did you know I was going up there to…talk.”

“I know everything,” I shrugged and looked away. “If you tell him, it won’t go well. He won’t believe you.”

She laughed. “And you just happen to know that? Because you’re psychic? That’s why she hired you isn’t it, John?” Who the fuck is John? Oh right, me. I hate fake names.

“It’s Alex,” I told her, frowning. She didn’t seem to notice I'd even said anything.

“Captain Tonner? You’re her pet psychic, right? What bullshit! Vampires can’t be psychic!” She brandished her plastic fork at me like a weapon.

Yeah. That’s why she tried to shoot me. She thought I was a vampire. Just because she was right didn’t mean I had to be happy about it.

“Besides,” she continued, “he’ll have no choice to believe me. You look like a vampire, with your pale skin, and black clothes!” Now that’s not really fair. People can be pale. And what does everyone have against my clothes anyway?

“Once they really look at you it’ll be obvious you’re dead! You don’t have a heartbeat!”

“Something you would think would have come up during my physical.”

Her face went blank as she was suddenly derailed.  “Your what?”

“You know, that thing where you go visit the Precinct Medic and she says ‘You don’t have any infectious diseases! Go you!’ Or at least in my case ‘You’re not dead!’ and clears you for work.”

“But…how….”

“Well, I’d tell you, but you’d just think it was ‘bullshit’.”

“It’s not possible…”

“Yeah, I know. But I am the exception to all rules, Isis. You should know that upfront, if we’re going to work together.”

“Officer Rhodes,” she growled.

“Right. For about, another hour. Then it’s Detective Rhodes. Congratulations by the way. Though I hear it doesn’t come with a pay raise.”

I thought she might hyperventilate which, of all things, actually made feel a little sympathetic. Fortunately I can ignore such feelings easily.

“So there you go. You can talk all you want, tell the whole world, and see if I care. Nothing will happen. Oh, other than you getting fired, losing everything and probably ending up locked up for life. “

She looked up at me. “What? Why would they lock me up? That’s ridiculous. And someone would believe eventually. You can’t possibly be that good.”

“Maybe not.” I am. “But if you say anything,” I paused. Drama can be fun.

“I might accidentally let it slip that you’re a witch.”

The fork slid from her grip and fell to the floor with a hollow clink. Her face drained of all color and her thoughts just…stopped.

“How. How could you know that?” Her voice was barely a whisper. We were both really lucky that only the kitchen staff was there this late, and they were in the back somewhere, because none of them were present for this conversation.

“What part of ‘I know everything’ did you not get? First, psychic. Also, vampire. I could tell the same way you could. The second I saw you.”

“Oh god….”

“So,” I went on, “unlicensed, unregistered, practicing witch working for the police? That’s not going to go over well, is it? You know what they’ll do, don’t you?”

She shook her head, though to what, I don’t know. “I’m…I’m not practicing.”

“Don’t lie to me. It’s insulting,” I spat.

“They’ll put you in the Hole. That’s a thing, you know. It’s not a rumor they started to keep practitioners in line. They’ll send a Bug Catcher after you and you’ll disappear into that dark, underground room, surrounded by enchantments, so you can never escape. That is, if you’re even good enough to try.”

Trembling, she put her hand over her mouth.

“Or,” I continued considerably more cheerful than she was, “You can show up for work on Monday with your shiny new detectives badge, and watch me do fun things like stare at paperwork, pick people out of lineups and break Detective Dana’s nose. Though I doubt he’ll ever touch me again after the first time, so that that last one might not have a repeat performance, sorry.“

She sat so still and was so quiet for a while that I kind of wondered if I’d broken her. I touched her thoughts, just barely, to see if they were even there.

Ican’tbelievethishowcanIdon’tunderstandnononono

Ok. Maybe I should poke her or something. If only I had a stick.

I was still trying to decide what I should do in the off chance she suddenly started ranting or drooling when she spoke quietly.

“So that’s it. You’re just going to blackmail me…with my life,” She said, misery and defeat in every word, and her posture.

I supposed I could afford to be nice, since I’d just won the fight, if you could even call it that. I don’t really understand nice, but I thought I’d give it a try. How hard could it be?

“Don’t think of it as blackmail,” I said, in what I hoped was a helpful voice. “Think of it as ….two friends doing each other a favor.”

“We are not friends!” She yelled. I guess anger is better than... well it’s not better, but it’s something.

“Co-workers then,” I said with bored shrug. I was done with this conversation; it was past time to move on. “Why don’t they have cake here anyway? There aren’t even any donuts! I thought cops ate donuts at like, every meal? I have yet to find any. And I’ve looked.”

Isis sat back in her chair, staring blankly forward. “Oh my god. This is my life now.”

“Yes,” I snapped, “get used too it. One long, cakeless fuckup, working with vampires.”

Vampires?” She asked giving me a confused look. "As in more than one?"

“Well what the fuck did you think David was? A pixie? A werewolf? He’s not that hairy.”

“Who’s David?”

Shit. Stupid, fucking fake names. Fuck!

“I meant Joseph. That’s what I said isn’t it? Joe? Right? I don’t even know a David. Who is David?”

Before Isis could answer, David actually walked though the cafeteria door, as if I’d summoned him with my stupidity.

“Hey, did you eat?” He suddenly realized Isis was sitting there, and tried to turn on his charm.

“Oh, hi Isis. I’m sorry, I meant Officer Rhodes.” He’s so polite I often want to puke. I glowered at nothing while he spoke over my head. “I really hope there are no hard feelings over…what happened. I look forward to working with you.” He didn’t go so far as to hold out his hand or anything, but I still gagged a little inside, while Isis did a very good impression of a deer sitting in the headlights of a speeding bus.

No one spoke for a very long, very awkward pause. Finally David gave in.

“Right. So why didn’t you eat?” He asked me.

“Because this stupid fucking place has no cake!” I stood up and shoved my chair back so hard it hit the table behind us. “Can we go home now? Jesse probably made me cake.”

David looked back at Isis who was looking more and more terrified. The funny thing was, the fact that we were vampires no longer scared her as much as the realization that she would be seeing us every day, for the rest of her life. Forever. Heh heh.

“I’m sorry,” David apologized again. “He has…. low blood sugar. It makes him irritated. I glared at both of them. It happens….often.”

Isis couldn’t seem to find words and just sat there staring at nothing.

“You haven’t seen me irritated yet,” I snapped. “Lets go! I’m done here.” I started to leave, knowing David would have no choice but to follow. He gave a frustrated and long-suffering sigh that he usually reserved for me. I heard it a lot.

“It was nice meeting you, he said to her, still trying to be nice. I guess we’ll see you around.” He turned to go, but paused, looking back. “Oh, and congratulations on making Detective!”

I looked over my shoulder as we left. She had dropped her head into her hands and was sitting miserable and alone with her wilted salad. I wasn’t sure how we would ever get along, but least she was hot. She’d be a lot more fun to look at on a daily basis than Detective Bruce Dana, who was like a brick wall that had turned into a man, and then got his nose broken by….someone, so he was all bruised and disfigured. 

I could work with her.

If you read that whole thing, thank you <3

Alex, Gabriel and the state of my dolls

I've been giving Gabriel a lot of though lately. I thought I would need a 65cm girl for her, but exactly none of them have really appealed to me. Yesterday I found two I really like -- but one of them, Spiritdoll Olea, has been taken out of the running. I love her done look on Spiritdoll, but the photos of the blank head leave me wanting. I don't like it. I almost bought it anyway thinking maybe it was just a bad picture anyway, but I'm glad I didn't....I don't want to get it and be disappointed.

The other head I decided would work is stupid Elfdoll Vivien. I saw one the other day and it has a huge resemblance to her old head - DT Rian - which I still pine for. I think she'd be perfect, if I could get one. There is one on the mp right now, but it's pricey. I might contact the owner anyway....I'd rather not pay for a faceup...but I can't put a faceup on anyone right now anyway lol so it would be better than being blank! Not that she'd get a body anytime soon. I'd like the Granado Nouveau body for her -- it's only 62cm but I was thinking about it and since I changed my scale to equal 65 = 7ft ish, 65cm would be too tall for Gabriel anyway! And I love how the Granado body poses. It would be perfect. So now I just have to make the leap and see if I can get that head on the MP....

After taking the "Week 1" Doll challenge photo (which I still haven't posted :P ) I realized I hated Alex's wig. It's a wreck and needs to be shot. I had him all dressed in about a million layers, and decided to cut his hair in an attempt to fix it, because really, it was too long. I usually only decide to cut his hair when he's so dressed I don't feel like taking his clothes off....which results in green hairs everywhere sticking to everything and getting in everything and making a huge mess. I actually ruined my favorite sweater of his because those hairs just won't come out.

I hacked at his wig for a while, and then it looked like this:

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 Which isn't too bad, but there are obvious issues....like that chunk I somehow missed. And the front is very straggly.


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 Sadly I don't think there is much I can do about how it just won't lay closer to his face -- but then I don't think most doll wigs do, so oh well. It'll never do what I want which is why I want to try to make another one out of alpaca. 

Last night I cut it some more, and I think I went too short...which means I'm pretty screwed lol because I can't make another one!! I dragged him with me today, so I'll try and get more pictures later. I really need to wash the thing....I should do that tonight and make him wear the fur wig lol

You can't see it in these photos, but his nose has a scratch on it too, easily fixed...but along with a lot of chips in his blushing (he's an asshole like the rest of them) I'm mad at him.

David is in much worse shape though. While taking his photo I found a HUGE scrape on his faceup. This is the Cynical head, which of his three heads is the only with a faceup right now. While I was looking at it, it just flaked away...so now it's a huge patch, not a scrape. *sigh*
So I'll be wiping that faceup too soon, and David will be out of commission. 

He's not the only one. I have a few incoming, and several at home that are blank, or really need fixing, plus three heads to repair and a full doll to do for someone else, plus several of my roommates dolls. Today's temp was 7°....so exactly nothing will be happening for a while. Urg.

And autocorrect is really pissing me off. It changes EVERYTHING. 

And I think I have frost bite on my thumb. 

So yeah. That's about it right now. I'm really just wasting time until I finish my Week 1 writing....someday....

One more of Alex

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Tuesday, January 6, 2015

2015 Doll-a-Week Creative Challenge

So I posted this on Flickr, but I will really be doing it here, so I figure I should a quick intro post first.

I stole this from Snowgray, she posted it on her Flickr.....basically the goal is to take a photo relating somehow to the word, then write something to go with, about the character(s). Which is why I'm calling it the creative challenge, instead of just photo challenge. The photo part was intriguing enough, but the writing part made me really want to try this too, as I failed Nano again. I might be able to get something out of this, then be able to do better come November. Plus, better photos was a 2015 goal of mine anyway! Two birds, one stick. Or stone. Or whatever.

Here's my list. It's the same as the one I stole from Snow, but I changed a few words...because I knew that if I hit those and was stuck or uninspired I'd get totally derailed and quit. I did a random word generator and got a bunch of new words and replaced as I felt necessary....  

 doll-a-week 

Feel free to play along! You can use this list as is if you want, make your own, or change it up some.

I'll be posting the photos on Flickr obviously, but both the photo and the writing part I'll leave here.

I actually have the first photo ready to go, but I'm working on the writing. In typical me fashion, it got away from me a little (it's already like, four pages long). I'm hoping to post it tonight, but it may be tomorrow....

I really hope I can keep this up. Encouragement may be needed.

Doll News
I used my shiny new 100 pts from Dollmore, the money I got from sales and ordered a DMK body - which is going to end up being for Vanilla as Mini-Wyn stole his body permanently. I compared both heads with the old and brand new parts from Dollmore, and Vanilla is closer to the new, while Wyn is closer to the old, so he stayed on the old, modded body (which I find funny as big Wyn is also gender-modded), with all the old parts, and Vanilla is waiting on his brand new body :)
I also ordered some clothes, shoes and another Fine head as planned. -- they actually emailed me last night - as it goes with me and Dollmore, they have the body, head and all the parts I ordered in stock...but two dresses are out of stock XDDDD So it won't ship until sometime next week. Which is STILL a super-short wait, so who cares!

I made my MOC order - if those shirts fit Metatron I plan on doing an Alice order next! Fingers crossed!!

AND BIGGEST OF ALL Today Withdoll sent me a shipping notice! Sterek will be on his way home!! :D

And that's it! I hope everyone had a great New Year!